Let Go

It took months of reflection after our relationship crashed and burned to realize you actually didn't love me the way I loved you. You loved me with conditions. There was an exchange of power every time we connected. I poured my heart and soul into you. Even my best sometimes backfired, but the love that came from deep within me to please you was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I've been trying to survive the emotions that flood my mind and body. I've felt paralyzed... My body is just a vessel to hold my spirit within. I'm stuck facing inward. It's like the outside world disappears as my mind ruminates on the past, on us. I feel blindsided. I never want to give my heart to another. Maybe I deserve these feelings... I need to let go. LET GO!