Let go

Maybe it's better for him. It hurt me, but at times, I run low. Of his food, etc, and I'm not sure where to get it. And I have to borrow money or some sort of thing. And I can't bring him to a vet. Maybe it's better for him. For him to be with someone else, I don't want to let him go. But I can't afford to pay for spaying him, so maybe it's best. To give away, maybe I was being selfish. If I truly loved it, maybe it's better for him. I'll move on. I wish he would go to a friend so I can see him. Im trying to face it. I adore him so much but maybe I must let go.