LDLN (Love don't love nobody)

People find love, when they learn to love themselves. Might as well wait forever, is what I wanted to yell. It's confusing at times, to have so much love to give, but for myself it feels unknowingly. If I told you, loving you helps me forget how much I hate myself, it's not poetry. I've died a thousand times, so I don't expect love to heal these wounds. But maybe she can hold my hand while I heal myself, I assumed. For a minute I felt relief, life almost seemed close enough to perfect. So giving you my heart, made life almost seem worth it. I realized there was still hope, for the ones who died inside everyday. But I guess it never lasts too long, and eventually runs away. I loved you enough to love myself, but it's not what I imagined. What's love without someone to give it to, and does that ever happen?. How can you sit alone, but not pick up the phone. How could you walk away, and destroy a happy home. Now I'm convinced that love doesn't love me back, I was just someone you taunted. Should I stay cus to me your worth it, or leave cause I'm unwanted. The decision should be easy right?? Why would I choose to stay. Love don't really love nobody, and my minds in disarray.