late night thoughts

I want a silver paint brush That comes out red I want to make you blush But I feel this lasting dread I'm scared you'll leave Because your love has run out If you do ill surely grieve I have so much doubt I love you so much it hurts And I know you do too But thoughts keep me alert I fear I have no clue That you really want to part Without you I'd feel so blue I don't want to restart I feel so crazy Am I overthinking or is it true? My mind feels so hazy I fear you'll see me as glue