Last Words

***NOTE: This is an older poem that I realized I forgot to add here. I am in a much better place mentally now.*** Why does life and love gotta be so complicated Drawin' all these lines that I think are overrated I had what I wanted but it wasn't enough Had a friend's embrace but I had to fuck it up Tried to hold a heart that was never meant for me Tried to cage a Bird that was meant to be free Then the walls came up now it's me inside the cage My heart torn apart inside me As at myself I rage No one no more to hold me No body next to mine Thinkin I might make this The end of my line Didn't even want sex I don't know why I did it Too late to go back now Think I might just have to end it Cryin while I'm eatin This might be my last meal Coat my heart with lead So I never have to feel Lookin down the barrel So many times I've tried Never had the courage But tonight might be the night