KINDA

I try to say what's wrong but my voice isn't coming out So my eyes tear up and my heart fills with doubt Because I know I can't cry, even when I try Sometimes I want to so to myself I lie No matter what I buy the void isn't filled Sometimes I get scared because my heart has stilled I can't make myself happy, I can't make myself feel I struggle to even eat a full fucking meal I feel so empty, it's eating me alive I wanted to be successful but I'm losing my drive Why does my family hate me, what did I do wrong I'm losing myself, I cant even write a song I wish I was enough, I wish I tasted better The only comfort I find is in some else's sweater All I've ever wanted was to make my boyfriend happy But I guess I cant, I really am just that crappy