"just the old days"

i miss those days when I could eat and watch the television all day having a smile on my face the smile that was caused by food not the people who came into my life just to visit I remember falling off there was a smile on my face when I was 9 years I would wear heels ,put on make up academically everything went well academics I got made me so happy but I never thought It would cause people to hate me then I turned 13 years I got more insecure but I learned to accept my insecurities maybe if I could be anyone else I would be more satisfied bout myself Rather not put the make up or do not wear that they said doesn't mean I have to wear what they want me to wear because they would look at me more differently wearing shorts taking photos because I look more prettier with them.