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I just smile and put on a big show Because my heart doesn't want to know That our baby should have been here I can feel his spirit still so clear I want to miss missing you ITS OK GOING AWAY NO REASON TO STAY ONLY TO GO FAR FAST EVERYTHING IS LOST NEVER GETTING BACK BETTER OF WITHOUT DISAPPEARING INTO A CLOUD Have it all throw it away Not now maybe one day Maybe never, always aware Just a little barely care Never wrong always right Not talk always fight Pushing pulling, never clear Loving hating feeling fear Feeling high took the fall To be save lost it all Never trust Doubt all that is said Dont talk about it only in the head Nowhere to go nobody feels like home Everywhere the same feeling alone Dont fit in always out of place Pretend to be fine put on a happy face Not feeling good enough for anyone Up to no good all is wrong. Always going never to stay Present but in the mind far away After all what is said and done always feel lost nowhere to belong Nothing is how it's meant to be Have it all throw it away Not now maybe one day Maybe never, always aware Just a little barely care Never wrong always right Not talk always fight Pushing pulling, never clear Loving hating feeling fear Feel