just loud thoughts

I feel like not moving an inch I know I should but I do not And even if I need to piss My inner self tells me to stop I don't know why and I will never Because I won't ever endeavor My biggest fiend was always me I was the one who shut the lock I think I threw the key away Years ago buried in the past My father told me years ago That men don't cry won't even shed A single tear not even if I lose a friend We just bow down and pay respect For what ones was But I wasn't him I just could not I was this overly emotional Shy-ish but yet never still Annoying but acceptable Little child in this cruesome world Where people say they eat the rich But isn't it the opposite Like 20 years for cannabis But pedophiles can still operate This world is shit And sometimes I think I should stop And end it all right here and there The Curtains closed and doors be locked And even opened, nobody'd care They wouldn't cry out in dispair They'd just bow down and pay respect, The last thing that myself has lacked