Just help

Im tired of this. Im not the enimie. Im not a bitch. Please, God, you must help me. I mean, this is horrible. I cry inside and out. I make mistakes. I do stuff wrong. But I'm not the bitch and enimie. Yet why you think of me as that? Please stop hating me please don't think of me. As a bitch and a enimie Lord sorry for cursing. It's the pain I feel please God I need you. Fix it, change it,just help.