jesus

im in 9th grade just starting a new life when I look up into the sky and realize I was missing, everything, missing gods plan missing Jesus the bound I felt I made was fading a way and I need it but I didnt stop it not when my spirit was begging for me to except God and to except me let him work his way threw my life but I'm so scared to trust him but I can trust a boy with my heart how funny I miss God I miss the trust I miss me feeling whole again so today I'll pray and I'll mean it today not a ask or a question but I'll ask beg I'll cry and deep in my body it won't feel right like I did to much wrong like I messed up again but I can't go back but I know not to listen because that voice is a lie something that brought me to this moment but now it's time to submit even if uncomfy just let go and believe because God is with me and loves me but I still need to fix it I do it's my fault this happened but I can change I love God and Jesus and I miss them so. today I'll submit and let all worries and cares go. I love you God I love you Jesus and I love the holy Spirit.