It was all gone

The way I saw you in my eyes. Felt like it was all just a disguise. The way your hand felt against mine, kind of felt like a sign. Was this all meant to be, saying our wishes from the seam. Four months passed and you haven't called. Waiting around for you to be appualed. That night you told me you loved me, was it really true? I want to hate you, but it just seems so cruel. Why do I still love you and want you to want me? Would you still want me? Do I still want me? Pages and Pages filled with notes. I still remember when you gave me your coat. Four years have passed. You've got kids and a wife. Can't help but feel like that should've been our life. Over and Over thinking again. Walking down the aisle till the end. Gonna be a wife for the rest of my life. But not to the guy I'd want for life.