It Should've Been Me

Not too quiet, not too loud. Don't be shy, don't be proud. It's rude to stare, Do I dare? Don't be bold, don't be timid. Not too slow, make it quick. It's so unfair, I should be there. Lost in a dark fantasy, my very own Pandora's box. Drowning in my Jealousy, I hope it doesn't show. Ire dipped in flattery, Nobody's been as close as me. I spilled my guts, But all for what? It should've been me, Death should have picked me from the start. And after everything I've done for myself, I should think that it's bizarre. It should've been me, Where do they think I got my spark? I chiselled down my personality 'til it's a work of art. There they are, Can't they see it? Everyone's in awe, How could it be? It's rude to stare. Yes, I'm aware! What a sight, Nearly perfect. "You alright?" "Does it hurt?" I will be there, I don't want to say it, but I know I care. Caught in my dark fantasies, Don't look inside Pandora's box. Push down my Jealousy; No, Nobody needs to know! Please don't think less of me, I'm but and insecure soul, you see. Oh what a shame, I've gone insane. It should've been me, I outta be there in your place. Just thinking of all the possibilities that I could bring to life, It should've been me.