It all restart

I thought I was getting better I stopped feeling out feeling left out feeling watched feeling judjed. It was a break, now it alll restarts... Waking up is hard, but not as much as falling asleep; the nightmares keep going one after one, cry after cry; I don't think I'll never get out in time. People makes me sick, I don't want them, I want silence, peace, a place where I can be me; no one that stares no anxiety inside. I wish I could sleep, I wish I could just sleep, and if I'm lucky, still asleep untill my body is part of the ground