Isolation

I crave isolation the raw lonelyness peaceful dedication this world becomes too much I want to fade away and have loved ones forget me so I can kneel and pray tell god about my sorrows as well as praise him I know it will help heal my scars made with a pin But I can't leave my friends who else will listen to their sorrows? they see me through a lense that I filtered for them I tell them I'm ok and make sure to live like it's true giving smiles everyday sometimes it builds up sometiems I believe the lie so I guess I'll stay secretly caged when I want to fly