Is this the end of me?

Is this the end of me? i feel the pain, don't know what for. i feel my bones slowly shattering, my heart melting away... my inside dying, my thoughts crying. is this the end of me? i want to melt away, just disappear. should I cry? should I let the facade fall? if i do, will you hold me in your arms, let me sit on your lap and kiss the pain away? and oh, will you rub my back and ask me if it feels okay? No? is this the end of me? this might be. I open my gaze, winds roaring on my face as if to say "stop". i look around, too loud, too dark, too high. I'm high. foot steps approaching. JUMP. This will be the end of me. heart thumbing, soul shivering. is this the end of me? my life flashed in front of me. i see the picture of my father in the hollow sky saying, "Beta, when you become a doctor..." It's my mother now, " look at you, alway lying on the bed like a lazy boy. get your ass up". fuck, is this my mind playing tricks? i see my brother, "let's play che-" why do i see all this when I'm dying now I jump. my soul left my body, my heart jumped out of my chest. am i dead? no. I'm not falling down the building. who grabbed my hand? "who are you?" "stupid, stupid girl" he said.