is the world alive still

The feeling of happiness I've lost it I used to drown in it but now the ocean is no more it's empty there's not even a drop lost I've asked I've forgiven I've apologized and I've forgotten But no matter how much I tried no matter how nice I was it was never enough I pushed my own feelings away I didn't want to say no I didn't mean to make you hurt but what's the point one of us will be hurt and if it's you I will beat myself up but what if it's me will you ever think twice on what you said what you did I have lost the sense of happiness in us, in myself, in life the little bit that was left is gone I don't have the strength anymore I can't even push myself to say it I am hurting not just mentally but physically what's the point of happiness what's the point of continuing I failed and you are in pain I'm sorry... I wish I had the strength my dear but I don't I have dried out the feeling of happiness was the water but even the soil has spoiled the sky has gone dark and the starts have died I'm sorry I didn't have strength to keep the world alive for you