is it worth the pain

Saying you loved me, with that look in your eye. I wish I could say it was a cold-hearted lie. I know that you love me, I know that you care, But the rage inside you slowly flared. I admit I've made mistakes, overstepping the boundaries, Which made me look fake. I always said I would never do the things I did, And I know that's why it's so hard for you to forgive. So many times we've said that we'd try, Just to turn around and make each other cry. Remember how it was when we first started out? We fell so hard, maybe fell in love too soon. At one point you'd notice ONLY me in the room. We both did things we can't undo; Now it seems our relationship is headed for doom, And not that long ago, I was EVERYTHING to you. Now you're looking for other things to "do." I admit my mistakes, but can you admit yours? I have paid for what I have done, as you've paid for yours. So why is it like this? Why can't we even ta You call me names and act like you don't care, All the while, our love for each other is still there. I never meant to hurt you or cause you any pain. I know neither of us want to go through this same old stuff again. I owe you so much, and I have so much to prove to you, But you continue to do things you you wouldn't want me to do. We always have these tears to cry, And are left with all these wondering questions of why? Why can't we get past the past? You think I expect too much too fast, But don't you want to become whole at last? Why won't you at least try to believe me, instead of pushing me further away? I have these emotions I wish you could see. Sometimes I get really upset, 'cause I feel you don't understand me Will you ever love me like you USED to? Show me the love that I ONCE knew? The love that we both grew, When will you see? I'm starting to feel like I hardly know you anymore? When can we go back to how it was before? Will we still hurt if we heal? Or by that time, will we still feel? My dream of US does not look like it's coming true. All I feel is sad and blue, And I know you're looking for other things to "do." You're sick of me and want something new.