is it really me??

Here I am again Crying over your hurtful words you spurted on me Crying at if I am good enough You admire them like the stars but never admire me Look at you putting the blame on me for my action The actions you caused Crying at how I am dumb for always staying when I had the chance to run away Is this really me?? Why would I stay Do I love him? Do I want to claim him? Maybe I'm just in my delusions trying to hide the red flags Is this really me?? shouldn't I run away?? Why am I here?? Why am I trying?? Once again I ask... Is this really me?? xoxo Nonhlanhla