Is it real or a game?..

Things happened between me and you, Things that almost made us unglue. I thought you got past it not forgot but forgave, Then tonight this all feels like a game. I look in your phone to find pictures of us, Only to see something and start wanting to yell and fuss. Pictures that look from a dating site, Only to tell me it's not and you did it out of spite. The hurt, betrayal, and anger I had, Lord really helped me cause I was going mad. You really don't understand the love I have for you, Not always showing but it will always be there and that is true. My heart dropped to my stomach so fast, I was honestly wondering how long it would last. Sadness, hurt, anger, and fear, I wanted to cry but we were near everyone here. The thoughts that were swaying through my mind, Made me want to act, want to say goodbye. With friends to talk to, help me calm down, I waited to text instead of talk cause I knew I would be yelling loud. Your explanation honestly makes sense, But like I asked you, "why our anniversary? That's a fucked up bitch. You agree and say yes it was fucked up, Not yet an apology, not a kiss nor a hug. With emotions built up all I can do is think, Is your love truly real or is this just a sick game?