Is it love

I can't tell if I love you or the affection you give me I don't know what's true and I don't know what could be I want it to be love in a deeper way but I just can't shove the thoughts away I don't know if I can be loved and I'm sorry I'll try to just man up and not be so thory I don't want to prickle at the smallest sign but love can be fickle and fills me with resign but I will say I love you back to the love that I am given maybe you can fix my cracks and I can be forgiven