irrevocable silence

it's like a ziptie around my neck exerting so much effort to gasp out a word as I struggle tears roll down my face the only warmth that has been in my body in months. hands quiver to grab a knife as I strain every muscle to move I finally behold the sharp object and penetrate my abdomen pushing the blade further and further into my veins I can't stop now. gasping for oxygen, I exit the dagger holding it up against my neck and shear the ziptie I fall to the floor. unconscious. arriving into my irrevocable silence everything powers off finally. termination. the close. the resolution until a light flickers luminescence dancing across my eyelids as I hear rhyme I begin to weep I'm in a permanent state of being. and there is hardly any escape