Irredeemable

I fear Im irredeemable I've done things I've shouldn't Said things i shouldn't have blurted And I've dug a hole too deep to climb I should move on And let bygones be bygones Learn to control the things I can But if I have the opportunity to fix what I've broken now I want to try Before I can't Am I redeemable in that case? Will you forgive the person I was And stay to see the person I'll be Will you love that version of me. Knowing who I was then I want you to understand I want you to be there I dont know why I am who I am I hope you know I hate it And these meanderings I say into existence only sink me deeper. Can I be redeemed? In your eyes?