INSECURITIES

Will I be able to make it ? I have my own insecurities , Not because of others but because of my own past self , What I was and what I've become ? How I was and how I am now ? It's easy to divert myself But at the end of the day It's me and my insecurities . Try to cope up with the elite , When I'm just an average Try to be productive , When I just wanna have fun What should I prefer , I'm more of hardwork person than smart work . Is it too late or too early , I'm impatient I know it , But when others say it .. It hurts I'm a coward I know it but others don't . What if the word fine was not in the dictionary , May be I'll always be just okay never be fine . To tell others ,huh ? Nothing changes , They'll try to console me like I don't know . I'm in the phase of life Where I hate myself for being so true , Where I hate being expressive to others like I always do . Where I listen to others but never say a word about my real self . Where I'm not me but also me . Where I'm unconscious yet so conscious. I want people to know me like I do , Not through words but through eyes and voice . continue in part 2