insanity ,why

insanity is the best way to describe love it makes you do things that you would never understand over and over again and praying and hoping you get something different in the end see I'm one of those that is so low I've held on so long praying and hoping somebody he'll see me and it seems that more and more that I hold on the less unless he sees of me and the more and more it's all about him second he's in this relationship alone and I'm just there for things he may need and I love him so much that I sit here in okay and do and pray and hope and wait for what just having a wonderful why why do I stay why do I convince myself but it'll be okay I don't know today that's my answers I don't know I used to believe it was because love endures all but I don't know if it does anymore to have my father so broken in a way I've never been before unable to even look in a mirror never knowing who I am anymore for someone who aims to please him at any cost but now the price was me that just maybe too high the price to pay for a dream and love that don't want to stay and I stand here wondering why and all I could do is pray pray that maybe someday that one question why will finally be answered