Insane

I feel blind on the brightest day, Just like the owl who can only see at night, I am deaf in the loudest environment, I can see nothing in the line of sight. The only thing I can feel is pain, Feelings and emotions don't exist for me, But I have learned to live with it, And now for me, it's the sign that I am free. Pain is all that's left for me now, It's in the brain and even in the heart, People always treat me like a heartless machine, I feel like a dead plant lying on the dirt. I too want to feel curiousness and love in life, I also want to laugh with people in freetime, But my anxiety and pain is a chain for me, Which says that I can't take other's time. Now, I am even afraid to talk to people, Can't even look in the eyes of my own clan, Afraid to talk, afraid to speak and afraid to look, I sometimes think maybe I am insane.