inner world

in my mind there is a world ive always wished i lived in a place i could go when the real world started to hurt too much when i dream of this place i feel settled in my skin my heart doesnt pound, and my neck doesnt itch i always have someone there when i feel alone and i never feel like im searching desperately for a home ive never known this life i have to live is not what i was promised and i can see a better way that i cant ever have so i see a doctor once a week to fix the way i think and i get pills to fix the chemistry in my brain but nothing can make my soul forget that this is not where i belong something is wrong and getting wronger and i cant ever escape