inertia

I eat, I repent. I punish myself, and I smoke. I judge myself, and I sleep. I try to avoid my problems by punishing myself. I let life pass me by, like a running faucet: while the water runs, time passes. I waste time. I get overwhelmed. I don't enjoy life. I have no strength. There's no motivation. Not even my health is paramount. I don't care. I do nothing. I kill myself for it.