Indifference amoung the damed

I was told that ive changed Change , i tried to change and i did I ditched my bad habits Moved past my addictions Tried to be more active I changed for her i did . I realize now it was pointless I find myself agreeing with dutch We are who we are and cant change that only accept it We cant fight it and its ashame cause its all i ever did I fought to keep you happy and joyful I fought for the opportunitys we never had I fought off my demons and tried for you I fought to prove myself the man you loved I Fought for the life we wanted and what did i get What did i fucking get huh? I fought for more scars that litter my body I fought for more truma that plagues my mind I Fucking fought and broke my mind and heart into pieces , for god sake i am broken I bounce from blissful indifference and content for my life To wishing for a dam way out to wanting the pain to subsidie I want this pain to end and i cant see a way out other then fighting So yea i did change