in love with emotion

It is hard for me to admit to myself How in love I am with emotion. Oh, how I wish I couldn't give a fuck, How I wish what you said does not phase me. I hope my face does not show you the pounding of my heart My glossy eyes The way I'm picking my nails apart But when I find myself alone, wanting to cry Feeling the sadness pool out of me to no avail It feels as though I saw a mirage. I wish I could let out all the emotion pent up in me I wish I could let it out in my solitude. But today I cannot. Maybe one day.