in denial

Stop being so fucking Lovable, it makes hating you impossible, Don't push me into the ocean of "imagination", because it can't be just "admiration" 'I hate you' with everything I fucking have, for making me think of 'someone' I can't ever have, I hate drowning in my own delusion, seeing you loving me in an illusion. bonus: you drive me fucking insane... making me want something real after I've spent years convincing myself love was a lie, and if ever you love me back, don't break my fucking break my heart.