I'm your disease

Sucked like a vacuum, I held my fear, built up anger you want to hold near. Shaking and trembling is what I feel, purging my thoughts is how I heal. Feelings of emptiness that have no depth. Disappointment climbs the walls inside my chest. You've lied to me all these years, holding in the pain that has caused so many tears. You think you're strong, but I make you weak. I know the truth you're looking to seek. You thought you had control over me all these years. I'm your friend when you looked into your mirror. You think you can forget me and run and hide. I'm the only one who has stuck by your side. I've given you comfort and relief. Why now do you treat me like a thief. I've stolen from you your sense of pride, not letting you see that you are beautiful on the inside. I've come to steal your strength and health. Don't look to me to give you wealth. You've been fighting this battle all alone. Haven't you figured it out that you can't do this on your own? This has been our secret for so long. Do you have the courage to make you strong? I'm the monster you won't admit, afraid that now you'll have to commit.