I'm trying

I try and try and try But my power is losing and I fall again A disappointment, a shame. That's what I am in your eyes. And this feeling in inside The weight on my lungs...on my heart It's growing slowly and I can't resist. It kills me. Everytime. And you are mad And I want to be mad at you... or me? Then why am I crying? Just stop it. But I just cry and cry and cry And it destroys me deep inside. I want to make it stop But I just can't, And after... I'm not mad at you, but myself