I'm still here

Have you ever thought of all the ways how, but never went through with it? Do you not know why you never went through with it or you do know.? Well I know why I'm still here. It's because I still want to live my life. I know that just because of the people and surroundings I'm in now are hurting my mental doesn't mean that I should just give up and not experience what it will be like later on out of those situations. I have a long life I can live whether I die tomorrow or in a few years. All I know is that I want to see and do different things and I don't want the things that make me unhappy to take the life I could live away from me. I'm struggling but I won't struggle for long and when I make it out I'll do my best to make the struggle eat my dust. Don't take one step forward and two steps back, keep going.