Im sorry Winnie.

and the hard shamefully memories haunt me like a soul tormented by the devil, I wonder where she is and how she is doing , my darkest regret and biggest loss the love I had and simply tossed , now I constantly pay the cost of what I abused and lost , it was never physical abuse but more like the adversity that come with drug abuse , you go on blind out of your very mind in destructive mode , when its over and you hit bottom and you are alone. Winnie forgive me I am so sorry love , I didn't have your back when push came to shove and I didn't protect you or understand why you were so mad instead I ruined what I once had and told you to leave saying I'm glad , your last words that night was, if I walk out of here I promise you will never see me again, its been 6 years and you were not lying and now its tearing me apart , I broke your heart and I scream at the sky please let it go let me be goddam it Winnie im so sorry ...its done and over now...