im sorry

im sorry for all this pain yes im the one to blame cant sleep at night knowing what Ive done wasn't right I try to move past it coming up with lies and you questioned questioned me why? why did you do this? then you ask what can I do to help you but I just sit there saying im fine when in reality all i need is a hug and to cry but I must not show it and stay focused in order to be the person you want me to be I know what I did was wrong you disappointed in what ive done but I don't know for how long Just please let me explain even though you say my excuses are useless