I'm Sick of All This 😭😡💀😔

Everyday, I wonder how I grew up so fast Looking back can be amusing, but then it makes me feel sad I just wanna do what makes me feel happy Like skateboarding, or horse riding, or even playing a sport I can't do these things, since my life isn't the same as before Most of me is glad that it changed, but a small part of me is not The amount of damage done and the chaos it came with felt like a lot I'm in a game Tug O' War: One side pulling into the light While the other one pulls me to the dark side As both side fight, I worry that the both of them may tear me apart But all this chaos will begin to break my heart I tried to suck it up, I tried to shove it back down the portal it spawned from But this thing wants to rob me of my fun I can't talk about it, the darkness is too scary They don't care about what I have to say They already think I'm too defenseless and weak anyways I just wanna be a child, I just wanna be free I won't be able to feel like that if these demons are creeping up on me I just wanna be a kid To create more happy memories for me to reminisce I just wanna be free, because I'm sick of all of this