I'm Pacing

I'm pacing and my heart is racing Don't know what to do, The memories came flooding back, Now I'm beaten — black and blue, Hell I've given life a chance, Tried to dance, Tried romance, Now I'm wondering when i can pull the mother loving pin, Sleepless nights turn into restless days, Restless days coalesce into slow mental decay, And I'm not okay but that's okay, If I cock back and paint the walls hell I won't be missed anyway, I'm sick and tired of all these thoughts, They're racing all in my head but this ain't a marathon, I'm jumping over the cliff please don't cushion my fall, I can't wait for this life to end, once and for all