I'm Not Perfect!

I'm living in a world where showing weakness is a bad thing. If I cry then I'm seen as soft. If I'm kind and forgiving then I'm seen as weak. If I'm rebellious then I'm seen as a savage but not to all. Only to those who think being bad is good. Why do I try to hide my true emotions? It's because I care too much about what people thinks! I have a voice but I don't use it cause the world hates it when you're real, but they love it when you're fake. They hate it when you speak the truth so they guilt trip you into being slient. Now listen, I'm NOT perfect. I've done things and said things out of anger. I still got some things that I need to work on such as anger, kindness, love, forgiveness, humility and showing mercy. There's two different types of anger. Worldly anger and righteous anger. I've been having worldly anger which is foolishness. I feel ashamed for my actions and I need to take responsibility and not react to negativity. Now I'm NOT responsible for other people's actions! I'm only responsible for my own! People who don't care about how they treat others don't even bother to apologize. Well guess what? I do care and I hope I can be forgiven.