I'm not normal...am I?

I don't know why but every time I feel sad or alone I go on my phone and search up things like rise of the teenage mutant Ninja turtles or something else I can fix it on it always comes back to them though how carefree and happy they seem to be even though they live in the series and our ninja use ninja stars and Play constantly it says if I wish I was there I wish I could just be something like them so happy and carefree they may say the world and have traumatic events but it's more entertaining than staying and then not being able to do anything except for what as your room never changes you can't get up in the morning because you're just so exhausted and you want to take some pain meds but I always go on my phone I don't know why but for some reason I feel so drawn to their life they live in New York and eat pizza all day they have a father that's there no mother but they stay the same they all have different personalities I love Donnie he's awesome he's my favorite one of them all 2018 the best version to me I don't know why but I relate to him maybe it's cuz he didn't get enough attention or maybe it's because we both have pain but he's my favorite character either way