I'm not me anymore

I've changed so much, in the past year or two. I don't like the same stuff, it's like I'm never enough. I've lost my interests, my reasons to exist. I've lost all my friends, so alone I sit in my room again. I'm not the same person I was before, for better or for worse, what was it for? It's like I have a curse. The light was once in front of me, now it's so far away, I can't even see, in the darkness I'll decay. I thought I found myself, in reality it was just a cry for help. So I turn to someone else, then push them away, even when Im begging them to stay.