I'm not enough

sorry if I'm never enough; but I had it tough; I had my first heartbreak, now I am in tears: I thought burned them away through all the years; why can't you see this weight I have to bare; why does it feel no one cares; I know I'm the devil; we'll be on our level; even while I bleed out don't worry; don't ever be in a hurry; you don't this pain in my eyes; feels like everyone just wants me to dies; I've been to heaven and I've been to hell; their story in intertwined more than I can tell; you may forever know me as a liar; but I ain't one I'mma die in the fire; when this world is young and I am old; don't worry I'll never be gold; I tell that I'm happy even when I'm not; then when you find out you say I'm just a thought; I know I'm not enough for your love; for I don't know even God is real or above; Even while im bleeding for you out; Ill be fine without a single doubt;