I'm not allowed to cry

we're moving on, it's over for sure, but everyone's ready to go. no one remembers who we used to be, so innocent, so pure. I remember our laughter, I remember our joy, now it's all made up, all to save one little boy. who are these people around me, they won't go back, they don't remember the good times, they're making new times. but the new times feel made up, it's underlining fake foundation. I hate you all, but love you all for it. no one has anything to say, we hate each other and we know it. too focused on feelings that aren't important and wasting beautiful time, we're supposed to find complete joy in one another, but all they end up doing is separating us apart. but still I can't pour my heart out to you, or else you'll tear it into little pieces, so from now on I protect myself, and keep myself consealed. I will not again run to you and cry in your arms, because while im sobbing, a dagger goes in your heart and in return you stab me back with the same dull knife. your a petty woman, having done this to your little girl, I swear to God, you've forgotten everything.