I'm my own enemie

I see my enemie, Everyday I have to look up in that stupid face which just seems strange I hate her so much and judge her like a drug. I want to punish her, hurt her so much. Sometimes deep in myself I even want to see her grave See that no friends, no family visits her there and it just ends. I even see her in my dream and can't stand what I see. She's so disgusting like spiders. Annoying like wasps and I wish she could stop. Stop being so annoying or even better destroying herself. But then I look in the mirror, see that face I'm the enemie. My own one. I destroy me with the hate of myself.