I'm Done

I'm here but.... I am disconnected. Love I can't find. I'm trying to be unaffected. but that messes with my mind. I'm such a mess. I'm in disarray. I'm feeling the stress. What can I say?  I'm scattered.  Can't find my place. Beaten and battered. Marks on my face.  I'm so confused. Nothing makes sense anymore. I feel stupid and used I'm shattered on the floor.  I'm searching for some meaning. What did you want from me? It's been so demeaning... Now I need to be free. I know you can hear me. I've done all I can You were pretending to be, But you were never that man. You could try, but you don't. You want me to take the blame. But I won't. It's not me who should feel the shame.