ILYSB.

EVEN NOT WRITING ABOUT YOU IS ABOUT YOU. YOU HAVE MADE A MARK THIS DEEP. THE ROOTS OF MY SOUL COME IN FRAGMENTS AND CRAWL RIGHT ACROSS TO YOU. I LOVED YOU SO I WOULDN'T EXPLODE. MY LOVE NEEDED A PLACE TO GO AND IT FOUND ITS HOME IN YOU. THE FIRE LIT IN MY VEINS AND I HAD TO BURN IT SOMEWHERE— I WILL TURN BLOOD INTO POETRY AND REMEMBER THE HEARTACHES WITHOUT BITTERNESS. I WILL WISH MY LOVE WILL FIND A KIND WOMAN AND NOT ME, I AM A HORRIBLE GIRLFRIEND, I RUINED SOME PIECES OF HIS LIFE. THAT'S WHY I ORDER HER LOVING WOMAN TO HOLD MY LOVER INTO TIGHT EMBRACE. FOR JUST TO MAKE HIM HAPPY I'LL SWALLOW THE PILL CAUSED BY THE PAIN AND DIGEST IT INTO MY STOMACH. I WILL FOREVER LOOK FOR HIM WITHOUT WANTING TO GO BACK TO WHAT IT WAS. THINGS AREN'T LIKE BEFORE. I WILL LAUGH AND I WILL LOVE AND I WILL CRY WHEN I NEED TO. MY HEART KEEPS ACHING KNOWING THAT YOU LEFT BECAUSE I COULD NOT GIVE YOU ENOUGH. WHAT I GAVE YOU WAS ALL I HAD TO OFFER. WHAT I GAVE YOU WAS ALL I HAD LEFT. DID YOU EVER THINK THAT I WAS HOLDING BACK? IF I WAS WHOLE I WOULD HAVE (GIVEN ME ALL TO YOU.) LET YOU TAKE IT ALL. YOU MAKE LOVING WORTHWHILE, YOU MAKE LOVING HURT A LITTTLE LESS. EVEN IF I DIED IN YOUR ARMS, I WOULD HAVE DIED SMILING.