I'll change but not as a sorry

I wish I could change. I want to change. I really do. I want to change for you. for us. I want to change I want to start a new. I want to change and I'll do it for you. but i won't change as sorry, I won't say sorry. I want to change who I am but not who I was. I want to change, I am a little ashamed of who I was, I want to change now that I'm at my highest but I won't say sorry for who I was at my lowest.