i'll always love you

i remember our knees touching and neither of us moving. I remember us listening wouldn't it be nice by the beach boys and thinking this will be us. Without an ounce of uncertainty. With all the hope in world like happiness was there. with you. in that kitchen. I remember you in your towel without a shirt blusing thinking is he doing it on purpose? I remember you and me walking to see the sunsrise so it would be just us. I remember you putting your jacket on the wet bench for me. I remember the endless conversations months on end like we never had enough. like we always had something to share. Its been 3 years. Why do I still think of those moments? Why are they carved so deeply in my soul? Why do I think of raisins every new year just because you told me it was a tradition in your family. It's been years since we had a month long conversation and yet I still think of it. I still remember your favourite color and animal which I always thougt a bit peculiar . I still don't like your music tastes. But I felt it again when you hugged me to say goodbye. This intense never ending longing. I hope we'll meet each other again. I hope you're happy with your girl. And I hope you never read this.