If only it lasted longer...

-As night falls and the sky once blue darkens, I find myself drowning all my sorrows within this one glass, The glass which contains the only thing that could help me create a new reality, If only, it lasted longer... Every night i use this glass as a portal to a new realm in which I can be seen as normal, A realm in which my desires are true, A realm in which I can find peace Yet, I still wish it lasted longer... How much of this can I take until, I finally decide to exit this earthly plane, and ascend to the land I have longed for, A land in which I can freely rome without a single doubt about my existence, A land where I don't have to be judge by appearance, A land where I can except myself.