If only....

If only I could wash away all my pains Get rid of all these painful stains While putting on sad songs and dancing in the rains Each droplet counting down the days I cried And all the lies I have denied But the only rains I that I dance in are my own tears f While I am surrounded by my own tears So I close my eyes to not see the lies Because maybe in these lies is where my happiness lies Or that's what I could I didn't see how my happiness was using me While during the times I was too blind to see Even tho my heart is still locked this happiness didn't have the key